These past few years of college have been a whirlwind let me tell ya. From being a freshman saying “I’m so stressed and busy” to looking back and being like “GIRRRRL, you had no idea what being stressed and busy was.” I this blog I will talk about my personal health struggles throughout school, both mentally and physically, as well as giving some tips to myself and others that want to join me to keep working toward better overall health.
I will start with the fact that I have had non-diagnosed depression that goes in its phases since I was in probably 8th grade or High School. That being said, college has only made some of those symptoms worse at times, although with some help from finding joy in certain things, I have learned to cope and sometimes its completely gone. When my Junior Year started, I was already stressed about what was to come. I quickly realized that I had developed pretty severe anxiety throughout the year that had seemed from a couple different things. I had never really dealt with anxiety before in this extremity. I stopped doing many things I enjoyed because I was overwhelmed, stopped enjoying things that I was doing that were causing the anxiety and not quite acting like myself. This anxiety turned into other intense emotion including jealously, hatred, fear, loneliness and many others.
Before my sophomore year I spent the summer working at a camp, during my sophomore I used to do yoga nearly everyday for 30-45 mins at least, and the summer before my junior year I worked out at least 4 days a week while living in Kansas City. I learned to use working out, and yoga to cope with other things in the past, but as soon as the anxiety hit at the beginning of my junior, I felt trapped and unable to talk myself into anything work out related and sometimes even social events (which if you know me, you know I love people). In those times of working out, not only had I lost weight and gained muscle, but I gained confidence and a better sense of self to stay grounded and positive in where I am in my journey of life.
Another reason that has played into my health issues, is that because I’m busy and don’t feel like I have time to make a good and healthy meal, then I eat out. Not that eating out is a bad thing, but at some points in my college years, its been a way to common occurrence. I have gotten to the point where my body just doesn’t feel good or right because of the things I am constantly putting in my body that don’t have a good nutritional value to them. In the fall of my junior year, I went vegetarian, and I still am (almost a year and a half), other than the occasional eating of meat here or there (probably about once a month). I started eating this way, yes because I love animals, but mostly because of the way it made me feel lighter and better. (IF YOU WANT ANY TIPS ON GOING VEGGIE LET ME KNOW). I will say though that it has not always been of help to me because I tend to eat things that may not have meat, but still are no good for me.
With that being said, my senior year has been anything but easy. I came in with a lot of anxiety still in the fall and was not working out because I felt to stressed and busy. One day I even had the worst and longest panic attack I had ever had resulting in not getting to participate in two classes.
Although it hasn’t been easy I made intentions with myself to think more about self love, and positivity in this new year, which is now two months in. I have been working out more (still not enough) and honestly still not eating very well, but that’s one reason I wrote this blog.
Next Week I want to begin a new health journey, with working out and eating healthy. I am using two apps to help me get my feet planted and adding in some of my own stuff as well. I am using the app C25K to train up to a 5k and maybe even a 10k. I am using the Livestrong app called MyPlate to log my food, but also they give you weekly grocery lists to get things to make recipes they give you (which is a little difficult as a college student because a lot of groceries at one time can be expensive. I want to start doing yoga nearly everyday again to put my mind and body at ease. I am writing this is my blog to hold myself accountable and maybe people will join me as well. Im ready for a journey of change in my health.
Here are some tips that I want to suggest to find peace in anxiety and to start a journey of self love:
- Don’t only workout because you don’t like the way you look, do it to better yourself, to plant more self love in your heart, and to gain muscle to be a strong woman or man.
- Take time out of your day to do yoga or just sit/lay with your eyes closed but mind awake in silence. Even if its just for 5 minutes.
- Set intentions for your day to be better than the one before.
- Choose healthier eating choices than the day before, but also reward yourself now and then for doing well in a really hard change.
- Most importantly, Remember that God does not give you more than you can handle, trust him.
Starting a new health journey is extremely difficult sometimes. But I am so ready to feel better mentally and physically by being more aware of my body and its needs to feel better.
I would love to hear other peoples thoughts, journeys, or from anyone who would like to join me. Accountability is huge, and it makes it so much easier to stick with something. LETS DO THIS.
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Thanks for tuning in to my blog,
Peace & God Bless,